Tonight I sit here staring at the latest batch of photos I edited. Sad to say they are from late May. Oh my yes.....how horrible behind I am. I find that I jump around editing the pictures that speak to me at the time, but often have to remind myself to go back to the oldest unedited ones and take care of those, or else I will lose interest, and there they will sit. These photos were ones that I was so excited the day I took them, but they sat on my hard drive untouched for months. Soon, I wasn't really in the mood to deal with them, as on a whole, they had so many technical issues, and were very much not what I had hoped for the day I took them. I was using a borrow camera, and was still in the process of learning all the settings. It was a bright sunny day, and the harsh light was a challenge. This leads to photos that certainly document the moment, but on the surface don't really speak to me.
However, underneath the mistakes and the flaws they somehow say a great deal. On this particular day, Sugar was in the mood to go, go, go, and per usual, mama was feeling lazy. In fact, that is pretty typical. Long before Sugar came along, I fell into a fabulously lazy existance. I lived for the weekends, where I could lay in bed all day, and read a good book. Really....truly, I do love the outdoors, but usually I need a big kick in the fanny to take the steps out the door.
It is Sugar that "moves me!" She is the reason I go outside. She is the reason I explore. She is the motivation I need to experience life. If not for her, I would never have walked down our road to spend several minutes admiring the recent addition of a foal in our neighborhood. I would have just driven by, glancing, and keep on moving. I would not have taken the time to really appreciate the beauty of new life.
If not for Sugar Bear, I would not slow down long enough to notice the smallest details. I would walk on by without a second glance, and possibly miss out on something special. In Sugars world, even a beetle bug deserves a moment of her time. There are questions, and answers.....thoughts and feelings to discuss. I would miss out on the insight only the purest heart can share.
Sugar is not afraid to plead her case, and go for what she wants. She beleives wholeheartedly in her opinions, and rarely gives up. Without her influence I would sit back, and let the world pass me by. I would let desires, and wants go unattended to. I would not stand up for myself.
She reminds me that there is always time to sit back and relax....share some love. To smile and laugh, and entertain those around you.
And there are times to let loose, and run....compete.....and find the joy in movement. With out her, I'd surely be laying in bed, sitting at the computer or holed up on the couch watching TV. She teaches me that there is great joy in being active. Everyday should be "racing day", and we ALL win.
Mostly, I stand back and observe this incredible force that is Sugar. It always amazes me how well she blends with nature. Even though she appears so small in a big, big world, somehow she also seems to grab it by the hand and lead it to places beyond my wildest imagination.
Just when I feel she is getting out of reach, she always turns and comes back. Eager to offer me her free hand, and lead me into her journey. It is I that gives her the freedom to explore, but Sugar that gives me the reason to do it.
This Sugar Bear....the force of nature.....SHE MOVES ME! and I am glad.