I am drawn to this photo tonight, as I sit at my computer feeling a heavy load of sadness. While I seek to keep my spirits up, I find myself overwhelmed with despair. When it rains it pours....that is what people say, right? Well, not only is it honestly and truly raining big ol' drops of rain on the roof of the Living and Loving home, the torrent or bad news has officially hit. It is the type that leaves you no choice than to be soaked........completely and utter soaked with tears.
Over a year and a half ago, a co-worker's husband was diagnosed with Lymphoma of the central nervous system. His prognosis was grim....Stage 4. With really amazing treatment, they battled the cancer, and gained him some ground. He has been cancer free for over a year. Today......they found out it is back, and he has another brain tumor. They are testing to see if it has spread to his bone marrow like the last time. This is devastating news. He suffered brain damage last time from the cancer and aggressive treatment. He is not likely to choose the aggressive route again, and January's scan was clear, so we know this cancer is growing quickly. My heart goes out to my co-worker and her husband. He is only 56 years old.
56 years old....is young....very young. However, 4 years old is MUCH younger. A mommy friend of mine has had her foundation ripped out from under her in the last few weeks. Her darling little Miss G, who was born within weeks of Sugar Bear, has been diagnosed with an irreparable heart defect. Myocardial Bridge causing Restrictive Cardiomyopathy, resulting in the Left Atrium being backed up with blood and large. Both very rare.
I have been unable to even think about it without breaking into tears. I simply can not imagine the heartache of hearing such devastating news. Please visit her blog and offer her some care and support. It would mean a lot to me.
As I lay in bed with my Sugar Bear tonight, the tears welled up, and I held her tighter. I found it hard to not feel such deep sorrow for my friends who are fighting for their loved ones. It really steers one back to what is right in front of them. One must cherish every little thing. Sugar Bear is my true JOY. I know it isn't hard to figure out that I am pretty smitten with this little honey. This blog is full of photo after photo of her special little self. It is this photo that touched me tonight. In her short life thus far, she has felt such little sorrow. I work to protect her from the hurt that life often brings. She has the ability to find the joy in most any situation, and can never fail to turn my frown upside down.
This photo was taken last August, near the close of a VERY busy day on the farm. She fell asleep on the floor while dinner was cooking. This is extremely rare for her. I had to smile when I saw this frown, because while I might be one of the happiest people you know, The Hubby has been telling me for years that I frown when I sleep. Go Figure.
Tonight, this photo made me smile....if only for a little while, I was able to cast a bit of the sorrow aside. I am grateful for that.